Happiness

Okay so I haven't been posting like I should, and that's because I'm finding it hard to blog about things specifically for clueless college students. From now on I'm just going to post some insight from yours truly.


Happiness. It's something that everybody pursues in life. What most people don't realize is that happiness doesn't come from how many things you have, or even how many loved ones you have. People who are depressed could have many loved ones, but still be unhappy. Happiness lies from within. It's not something you can search for, but something that you can achieve. Life is not easy by any means, but when we are happy and stress free it makes the hard things in life a little bit more bearable.

I used to make the mistake of relying on other people for my happiness. My unmet expectations from other people made me bitter and rude.  If my sister ruined a shirt with makeup, I'd use it as an excuse to be miserable. If my boyfriend canceled plans to hangout, I'd become a raging bitch to everyone who tried talking to me. It wasn't until I was single, friendless, and in complete isolation from a normal social life did I realize that it wasn't everyone else's fault that I was unhappy, it was my own.

Once I realized this, I started to rely on myself for my happiness. When other people did things that upset me, I fought the urge to lash out at them and would think to myself, "okay, what they did pisses me off, but they didn't intentionally do this to anger me. I'm responsible for my own happiness." Just being conscious of my own thoughts allowed me to forgive and forget the little things and let them go.

I started meditation and yoga to further help me control my thoughts. After only weeks of this, I was able to clear my mind and think about all the good things in my life. When something bad happened or something didn't go as planned, I wouldn't dwell on it. I caught up with old friends and made new ones. I was happy. A couple years down the road, at my most content, is where I met the guy I'm dating now, Josh. Relying on myself for happiness made my relationship with Josh a million times easier than it was with my last relationship. Sure he does stupid things to piss me off sometimes (what man wouldn't?!), but his intentions are pure and his loyalty is high. I don't think anymore what he could do to make me happier, but what I can do to make him happy. His happiness alone makes me even happier than ever.

So, yea I used to be a miserable teenage bitch who blamed the world for my unhappiness. Once I grew up and realized that if I don't expect from others and am conscious about my thoughts, I can be happy.